My Lazy Girl

Hi! To be honest in the very first place let me tell you that today I have no agenda or gossip to share with you. But frankly speaking, all this time when I was lost, I missed myself and by myself, I mean "you"! I don't know whether my absence was felt by you or not but perhaps I also know that there are people or I should say great people in your life to entertain you but somewhere sometime I thought, I felt incomplete, as if a major part of myself was being lost, and by myself I mean...you! Each day I remembered you in your own weird manner. Whenever I see something,  thoughts remind me of you and by you I mean myself! Each time I decide to write to you, procrastination has its spell on me. I missed you every day, I missed you every night, I missed your comments and the controversial fights. I had nobody to push me by saying...... "keep going, we need more of you. " nothing prevailed but the deep silence. I know you have forgotten me this summer but ...

Surely there would have been some fault in our upbringing that today you are arguing like this with us!! What century do you think we are living in? 21 st I guess! But the mindset of the people specifically our Parents resembles that of late 90's. Some who are reading this, and urging to differ with my views, Trust me dude you are the fortunate one! I know you dissent from my point, but before that let me have the privilege to orchestrate my notions on it. So here I go!! Point 1 : NO!! You are not allowed to serve your emotions raw to your parents before contemplating them. Some of us have even tried this. Still if you think you are daring enough to take a step and prove me wrong, then stage is all yours! Go try at your own risk. (Don’t forget to share the consequences with me later.) Point 2 : No matter how old are you, they will always be older than you !! Dad I want to go for interior designing. Designing? You have no idea what life is all about in com...

                                   Let everything else be under my heels,  its Shop O'clock, come lets shop ...... Hey how you doing? How’s life? And we will take a deep sigh before answering, haaaaahhhh……….yeah…its fine. How about you? Happens?? I guess so. At least with me it does, sometimes I don’t even want to answer this question. I know you are playing cool, isn’t that enough? Why to scratch someone’s wound? Idiots!! It’s rarest of all when people find us happy. Most of the times either we are stressed, tensed for the things we hardly have our control on, or simply afraid for the issues which don’t even hold any meaning.(I mean why to worry, when things are destined to happen!! If your boss wants to chuck you out of the office, he will!! You will get another job, what’s the fuss all about??) and if nothing works, we will end up putting our status as-”Feeling Numb!!...

                               I don’t know why I am writing this to you! May be somewhere I believe you have answer to my questions or maybe you can understand the messy heap of my thoughts! Sometimes when I see you, covetousness glides in my veins. How can you have crystal clear thoughts about your next move? How can u easily decide whether to go for black or white while I always struggle between my shades of grey!  I have everything in my life, which someone ever dreams of! A good job in a reputed company ( the work I am hardly interested in doing , but still doing !!) , a supporting family which is always there to shield me when I crumble from in and out! A couple of faithful friends, on whom I count on blindly. Blessed!! Ain’t I? Still, still I feel a major part of my life is missing! A connector to complete the maze. Each day, I am spending 10 precious hours of my life on someth...

Why Men don't use their brains at early stage? And When, enlightened with some age-old-wisdom by some saint of Himalayas, they still mess up in serving their point to a girl contemplating it as  "Complicated" !!    He: It’s not happening! Things are not the same way they used to be!! I am over burdened at work, haven’t spoke to you since 8 days, and you too not going well with your health. I mean, nothing is well!! She: hmm..Yeah, I know! He: how can you be so casual about it? What’s going on your mind Norah? Look I need to focus on my career right now! We both are 24-25 years of age. Don’t you think it’s the high time for us to make career and let’s be friendzzzzzzzz?? She: Yeah!! Let’s be “friendzzzzz” after 3 years of relationship!! Great going Sam!! Go build your career! And *blocked*!! You blocked him? I asked Norah after she sighed narrating the not so good conversation between Sam and her!  Yeah I did!! haahh!! Awwww, poor gi...

 It is not that easy as you think.....but still should I believe you?  My Dearest Love,   Don't be afraid if you don't find me sitting next to your bed. I will be standing next to you, once you finish reading this note. Clara, darling! Do you know something?  You are the prettiest flower of my garden who is yet to blossom, and for that my love you have to make your roots strong and nourished!! Being a loyal Gardner I promise to protect you against all the odds of the world. I know you feel sad when you are bound to have bed rest (I know my butterfly never wants rest). I know you feel helpless when you can’t lift your leg to kick my ass off. I too know, a bag full of medicines puts you in a world of depression and self questioning, why me?? I know you doubt my love that one day I will leave you because scientifically you are not going great with your body. I understand honey. You are the brightest star of my galaxy, I will ...

Life was simple , without any complexities. Achieving a 80+ score in maths and science used to make us among the Einstein’s of our class. We all have lived our 16th year of age. Remember those days? According to my calculations, we would have been in class 8th 9th or may be 10th (adjust yourself in your respective class.) In case you don’t remember your “sweet 16”(that’s how we call it cynically) kindly bear some pain to open your years old photo album and have a look !! Get up !! Yeah, I am asking you to get off your ass , go in the front of the mirror (don’t forget to take the album in your hand.) Now have a deep introspective look on that photograph and then at yourself again! Yeah you got me !! Your photo doesn’t do justice to the word “sweet”. We look sophisticatedly smarter and sensibly sweeter now than we used to look years ago. Actually, I am really looking for that wise person who titled it as “sweet”.  Like come on , who does that ?? We used to look utterly d...