My Lazy Girl

  The thoughts and glimpses of the past and the pain which I had suffered long ago were dancing again in front of me. I wanted to get over it once and for all. “Hi.” The message popped up on the projector as I was giving the client a demo. Soon after, another message appeared: "How are you doing these days, miss?” Excuse me, I muttered as I hurried to log out the social media app on my laptop, which had remained open from the action I took last night. Those messages invited a playful smile on everyone’s face. Ignoring the embarrassment, I quickly finished rest of the presentation and raced my steps out of the room. “So how are you doing these days, miss? Let's have dinner tonight,” whispered a high-pitched, thin, playful tone behind my back. It was Genny. I turned back and smacked her shoulder with my laptop. “Shut up, its nothing like that!” I replied as I defended my privacy from being invaded. Genny has moved to New York for many different reasons. She wanted some change in...

You there, right? Hello?? Clara??  What’s going on in your head Derik? Nothing. He responded in a expressionless voice. You okay? Yeah. Pretty much. Are you sure? Yeah Clara, please don’t poke me with your questions. I said I am fine!! ( silence) (heavy gasps) Why you talking like that to me? How can you be so rude? If you don’t wanna talk, hang up!! Fine, I am sorry!! I just, I am not so fine Clara. I mean I am fine but there’s one part of mine which is not okay. I know, tell me, what’s bothering you. Breath first. I am listening, tell me! I am missing you Clara. I am missing you here!! I am thousand miles apart and it feels cold. I am questioning my existence. Is this really what I truly starved for? And if it is so, it’s accomplishment gives me no pleasure and happiness. I am not feeling contented. I don’t know where I wanna go, what I wanna do next. I am not able to find the word “Settlement” in my dictionary. All I am having are the bla...

Let’s slow down again and brush our yellow teeth in the morning together. Let’s crawl in each other’s bed again And take those sleepy selfies together.  Somewhere at 11:45 in the night, let’s be in our pajamas and sit on a bench, somewhere in the park and consume that ice cream tub together. Let’s slip back in the memory lane and tell each other how weird our childhood was. Let’s revive and polish the blurred mirrors like the old wines in New bottles. Let’s get soaked in the darkness of night that has a  sound of nocturnal bird humming in the background. Let’s get into some serious discussions of work life balance which we always strive to achieve yet fail miserably. Let’s just make each other understand, that life is not all about rushing and achieving. Come, sit! Take a hault. This moment, this very moment of 12:07 am, when we sit together with our ice cream cups is our very own! Let’s endure the definition of happiness that life tends to offer at differen...

Even if we have complicated issues enclosed in our laptops, we can still smile with a cup of coffee in our hands and slay the look. We are engineers after all.  Something happened this weekend which offended to the core. How can someone comment about my job just like that. In 365 days of calendar, we celebrate one day or another. We have Doctor's day, Teachers days, Aids day, Mother, Father, Children's day, Independence day and then our very own Birthday as well. Celebrations goes on. But one profession which is totally ignored and is un appreciated is that of an Engineer. Being an Engineer myself, it feels really disappointing. IT people do not have any day other than Saturday and Sunday. I don't know why people carry a different mindset for us. For an instance let's just say.... For our families : We are those free birds who are enjoying their freedom in different metro cities and if not controlled on time, we may slip out of their hands. ( now according ...

Zillion times in a day we do this "OMG" thing with various expressions. Whether we have it or not, everything seems to be problematic for us in the end. From work place to toilets, from pollution to population everything appears earth shattering to us like, OMG what I am gonna do now? Aah... OK, so it's time to give an award. And the nominees are............ Zillions of people breathing on this planet that supports life called earth. Ladies and gentlemen give yourself a huge round of applause while you have the honour of receiving this Grammy award for your life long contribution for yelling and crying over the issues that have been appearing in your journey from past twenty years. Yuhuuu.... Cheers. Yeah yeah. What? Why are you giving what-do-you-mean look to my blog? (Lemme explain my sarcasm.) OMG I have a terrible BOSS, save me. OMG I don't have a work to do. OMG I have so much work to do. OMG I want to leave this place and escape. OMG, I  just wanna ...

We all work for the same thing but with different agenda.We all have battles to fight but the victory is for the same thing. Similarly we might work at different places in different roles but for the same Motto in the end. MONEY ! Well March and April has ended and it’s the May time. Here i am talking specifically about March as many of us know that its that time of the year where the performance of an Engineer comes into picture. And then we are Promoted or Demoted accordingly! May the month of possibilities where the intensity of our hard work depends on the level of our promotions we get. Today this blog of mine majorly focus on the people who work in IT. By this time I know many people are injured from inside while others might be enjoying their weekend in the best possible way. Today I was in my bed for the entire day doing justice with the Sunday and constantly thinking how situations can change us to an extent. Like we IT people work our ass off to get butte...